Surreal to be dream...

Kal ke raat kuch ajeeb thi, ajeeb aysi ke ek jaane peehcahne se ajnabi se phir mulaaqaat hui. wo bolta raha ho may sunta raha, or bus yuhi raat kab shubha me tabdeel ho gayi pata he nahi chal. May hamesha ke tarah raat ke khamoshi me sukun ko talaash raha tha. Achanaak ek awaaj saanaate ko cheerate hue mere kareeb aayi.
Bahut Dino se tumhe dekha nahi yaha...suna tha ke kisi ke par nikaal aaye hai bahut dur ke udhaane udha raha ha aajkal wo shaqs. phir ye kya, tum yaha kya kar rahe ho ?
Taaq gaye ho ya phir bore ho gaye ho...Ya ab maza nahi raha udhane me...Baat kya hai...?
Dekh raha hu jishe kis pinjare me rehane ke aadat na thi, jisne bade bade pinjare yuhi chod diye aaj wo shaqs is chote se thang se pinjare me pada hua hai...Kiyo har gaaye itni zaldi...?

Ek he bar me sarre sawal kar logaye kya...Ye sawal hai ya taunt mar rahe ho mujhe...Wase tum batao tum aaj yaha ka rasta kasie bhul gaye...or kya dekhne aaye ho yaha.?
may tho hamesha se yehi tha roj yehi se guzaarta tha. tumhe dekhta tha or chala jata tha. tumhi kahi busy thi. Naye dost jo bana liye thi tumne.
Par dekh raha hu aaj tho yaha koi nazaar nahi aa raha. Tum akale ho, Kaha gaye tumhe saare dost jinke hone se tumhe meri mojuzadgi ka ehsaas nahi hota tha.
koi nahi hai mera. May akela aaya tha, akele he chala jaunga. tumhe kya...?
Ha mujhe kya. Suna tha Rishte wahi hote hai jo tumhare sath khaade ho jab koi dursara na ho, jab tumhe unki sabse zada jarurat ho.. Wase pata nahi tumse kya rishta hai mera, kiyo may tumse baat karta hu. kiyo may tumhare bare me sochta hu.?
Or ye kiyo sochta hu ke tum badaal gaye ho...?

Tumne chand ko dekha, nahi dekha tho dekho abhi, Tumhari Aakhnoo se riste lahu ke ek ek katre ko ushe aapne upper ood liya hai...Maano chand chand nahi ek lahu ka goola ho. tumne Sitaro ko dekha kab se muntazir hai tumhare ek ishare ke liye. Ek kab tum dil se kuch maango or wo ushe pura karne ke liye khud ko faana kar de. Tumne hawa ko suna hai, jo kabhi maad mast naacha karti thi tumhari nazaaro se aaj wo naachna bhul gayi hai.
Nahi dekh raha hai tho dekho, ish tang pinjare se bahar tumhare chahane wale kis tarah haataash hai.
Mehsus karo ke Dil sirf dil nahi jo bus dhaanakhna jaanta hai. Suno wo kya kaha raha hai tumse. Wo bhi tumse yehi bol raha hai ke Wapas aa jao jaha sab tumse pyar karte hai. Jaha Sapaane bhi haqqikat ke tarah lagte hai. Wahi karo jo tum hamesha se karte aaye ho dilo ko jeetna.
Zindagi me aksaar hum rashte bhaatak jaate hai, par bhaatakne par roone se kuch nahi hota, ye jo galaat rashta hai ishe bhi aapni mehek se bar do, ke yaha se guzaare wala har shaqs ke Zubaan par tumhara naam ho or Dil me ye ehsaas ke Jeena ishi ka naam hai.

Phir kya Zindagi bhi lad padegi tumhare liye maut se...Chinne ke le aayigi tumhe wapas aapne pass.

Kiyo mazak kar rahe ho mujhe se. May kuch bhi nahi...May kuch nahi kar shakta. May sirf...

tum sirf Khush ho, Tum Khush the, or khush he rahe wale ho. Chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye, chahe koi bhi aa jaaye tum tum he rahoge.
Tumhari fitraat he kuch aysi hai ke Tum badaal nahi shakte. Tho kiyo lage ho khud ko badaalne me,kiyo lad rahe ho khud se... Arre baqsha do yaar khud ko, kitna hurt karoge khud ko,aare ye befeeqari, besabar paan, deewaanigi Inse lakh chaho par tum peecha nahi chuda shakte. Tho bus phaank failaao or Udho jaao thod do ye pinjara ye bandish Dil ko azaad karo ko sarre bandaana se.

par aysa kaise hoga...?

Kaise hoga yaar ye tho bahut phale ho chuka hai bus ab mehsus karo aakhnee band karo or suno...?

And when i open my eyes sun rays touching my face. I thought it was a dream But it felt like Surreal...and who is that stranger...I know him Raato ka Raja tha wo...U always bring mirror with urself and show that to me...Miss u buddy really...

Haqqikat or sapaane me bus farq hota hai "Hone ka"...Jo hota hai par dekhta nahi wahi haqqikat hai...

Give me a place to stand and i ll move the earth...

Like any other day i went on bridge near my place i love to go their whenever i m happy or sad weather something is brothering me or i need peace i went there and sit calmly. I saw man already sitting where i used to sit. i went near him park my bike and set beside him. he didnt borther to notice me, may be he was there, just like me to find peace. so we both set their at the night. we didn’t talked to each other was just imagine the moon how bright it was looking at that time with few stars so clear sky lovely weather wind blowing. It feels great i was enjoying that night with my thought actually that day i didnt have one... it happens rarely. It’s the most blissful night without anything to think on just feeling the peace and love nature is giving me, my heart was beating rhythmic with blowing wind's beat. Its musical...

Suddenly i heard something...

Life is all about survival it’s not a journey not even beautiful...!!!

Surprisingly that man beside me shouted those words...Truth or not But it just caught my attention.

So i asked him really...?
Then he said to me...

Life is all about survival it’s not a journey not even beautiful. you have to Survive for food, name, relationship, even survive for breathe here. This world is all selfish If u want something in life fight for it. It will not come to your door until you do something to bring that thing at your door steps. But always remember fight what your heart say not because your mind is saying if u do that it ll bring that thing. Please don’t think like that... Mind is all calculated and u ll misses the biggest miracle of your life.

Ok i said but why are you telling me those thing. Are you drunk or what. i had came here just to chill. So please enjoy your own thoughts and let me enjoy mine. I said those things to him and leave that place and went lil far from there. Now i was thinking who is HE...why he is telling those things to me... he seems drunk...Did something brothering him or he need someone to just listen. Those words seems realistic to me. Whatever his problem is he is right life is a survival for existence. Den i thought everybody needs someone to listen them so i went near him and ask him. What happen did something brothering you u can tell me i ll listen to you. Don’t know whether it ll help or not weather i ll shot your problem or not but sometime its feels good when you open your heart to someone.

So tell me i m all my ears, without any judgments.

He looked at me from top to bottom smiles at me and said have you watched Mera naam joker?

I said yes its one of my fav movie i had watched that movie lots of time.

So u had watched that movie lots of time and yet you liked that movie and the character of joker that much and you want to be like him. And now u r trying to be one right now...Dost don’t try to behave like joker It ll not take u anywhere. You ll be struck and always be there from where you had started your life.

Wht r you saying that character always spread happiness and joy..

Yups he did but what ll he gets from spreading that thing.

Did he need anything in return?

Oh my friend you are living in which world. Khyaalo ke duniya se bahar aao meri jaan dekho duniya wasi nahi hai jaisi tum dekhna chahte ho wo jaisi hai wasi he rahegi. Tum joker banke duniya ko badane chale ho kya...Dost let me tell you something all stroies of life revolve around 3 characters Hero, villains and joker... Hero always say give a place to stand and i ll move the world.

Villain say i didn’t need any place to stand don’t give me i ll have the place and i ll show how to move the world.

While joker says why to move the world just smile it is beautiful as it is...

Did you find whom people like the most Villain bcaz he shows guts to do whatever he wants to do.

Den hero bcaz he kindly ask for place but very few idiot likes the joker and want to be like him. bcaz he didnt want anything for himself and dats the bullshit thing now a days.

So be realistic and try something new. if you ask me i ll suggests u try to be like villain not like hero or joker make everything comes to your door step don’t beg for it...fight for it... And after saying those things he went away saying think about it.... And i m still thinking about his words...Is he right...Is world is filled with selfishness...BTW i didnt went far on his thought and what i want to be...But some thing is right in his thought. that makes me think about that...

So did i want to be villain in my life or hero or joker...Dont know yet...:P 

Zindagi kya hai...?

Batao batao me kal Maa se pucha Zindagi kya hai...?

Thoda socha unhone or kaha Zindagi...!!!

Zindagi tu hai mere laal...;)

May haas pada or haste hue pucha kaise...?

Zindagi ek phaali hai hum ushe jitna samjhne jaate hai utne he uljaate jaate hai...Humne lagta hai ke hum zindagi ko jaante hai par zindagi ushi pal humara ye bharam thod dete hai or kuch or he nazaar aati hai...

tu bhi bus wasa he hai...Tujhe may samjhna chahti thi par nahi samjh paayi aaj thaak...Tu har pal badalta rehta hai...

Tu zindagi ke tarah bahate rehta hai...Tu kisi ke roke se nahi rukhta...Tu bus behata jaata hai...Tere ek alag he duniya hai jisme sahi or galaat kuch hota nahi...Jo hota hai bus tera hota hai...Tere upper kisi ka control nahi hai...Khud tera bhi nahi...Tujhe na, har koi jeena chahta hai...par tujhe jeena har kisi ke bas baat nahi...Teri khamoshi me bhi sawal hai...Teri alfazoo me bhi jawab nahi milte kabhi...Tu bolta kuch hai or log samjhte kuch hai...Tujhe samjhna hai tu us pal ko samjhna hoga par ushe samjhne bayte tho wo pal he guzaar jaayega...Tho simple hai ke soch samjh chod ke tere sath ho lo...

Tu bawaara Samundar hai kabhi bewajah shant rehta hai kabhi bewajah gusse se bahar hu...teri har lehar kuch naya he faasana kehti hai...Teri har ek mauj me alag he khasish hai...Bahuto ne chaha hoga ke teri gehari naape...Par hua yu hoga ke kisi me bhi hosala na raha hoga barbaad hone ka, tujh me utarne ka...Or jisne thoda hosala dekhaya hoga wo adhure me he wapas laut gaye hoge...Teri koi manzil nahi hai tera koi rasta nahi...

Par ha teri is belaagam kashti ko lagam dene ke khosish bahut log karege...

shyaad may bhi...Par yaad rakhna ke Tu zindagi hai tu kisi ke liye rok nahi shakta...!!!

I want the part of you that you refuse to give to anyone...

That night they were fighting like real...It is not just another cat and dog fight its something more bitter and worst...Every word they use is meant to hammer the heart and they both keep hitting each other with those until it break...

Why are we fighting...?

Tell me what u want from me...

u think i want something from u...Ya u always thought that...Its not a relationship we are doing business here...

Huhhhhhhhh...Why you always do these unexpected things to me...I didn't do anything for u...

I don't know why...But i do...What my heart tells me to do...Is it any problem...

Yups they irritate me...Seriously i want to know what u want from me...?

You really wanna hear this...?

yeah i want to know...

hmmm...What i want from u...

I want you to be u the way god sent u to this world drop all those wall that u have created around u and stretch your wings and fly in to the sky...

I want to see u dancing with moon and flirting with stars...

I want to see the real  u...i want the part of you that you refuse to give to anyone...

I want to know what you’re thinking about when I look over at you and you seem so far away. I want to know what keeps you up at night when it’s 3 am and a lot of the world is fast asleep. I want to know if you’ve ever been in love, I want to know how your heart has been broken. I want to know why you don’t feel as if you’re good enough for anyone. I want to know what hurts you the most. I want to know, when was the last time you cried? I want to know if you love one parent more than the other and I want to know about your older siblings. I want to know why you feel insignificant all the time and I want to know why you shut people out half the time. I want to know things that no one knows about you— I want to know your deepest secrets. I want to know you trust me with these things because then I’ll feel as though I have a purpose here. I want to know what makes you happiest in this world, and I want to know what you do when you’re happy and home alone. I want to know about the way you see the world, and the way you see me. I want to know why you feel lonely even in a room full of people, because I feel it too. I want to know who you love most here and why. I want to know about your favorite form of art and how you express yourself. I want to know about all the places you’ve seen and the places you want to see. I want to know where you’ve been and where you’re going. I want to know about where you go when you’re sad. How were you before me? I want to know about your biggest mistakes. I want to know your greatest accomplishments. I want to know about your hopes and aspirations. I want to know what makes you different and I want to know why I feel this way about you. I want to know everything about you even if it takes a lifetime.

Koi chod jaye sath bewaqt to bura lagta hai...

Photo by Maryam Ashra

Khile hue gulab ka murghana bura lagta hai,
Koi chod jaye sath bewaqt to bura lagta hai...

Fasle mitana achi bat hai,
mager unka kisi or ke kareebi jana bura lagta hai...

yu tho chalti hawa roj fizao me,
par hawa bhi unko chuker gujare to bura lagta hai...

unki hasi lagti humne sabse pyari hai
par unko kisi ko dekh kar muskurana bura lagta hai...

Intezaar me unke bita du sari umar,
lekin unka yu mil ke  bicheed jana bura lagta hai...

kaha to dete hai hum roj bewafa unko,
par kisi or ka unpe ilzaam lagana bura lagta hai...

Wo naam na le humara zindagi bar gum nahi,
par na jane kyo unke labo pe  kisi or ka naam ana bura lagta hai...

Ek Khushrang khwab hai massarrat...!!!

Na koi umeed ke na hui koi Hassrat,

ek Khushrang khwab hai massarrat...!!!

Na ke thi dosti lekin dushmani kar bayta hai ye dil...

Na jalati hai mujhe, na jalne deti hai ye...

Ek ajnabi shama hai kareebi jakar jana hai parwane ne abhi...

Khushnuma pal tha jab jaana tha ushe,

Adbhut duniya thi jab pehchana tha ushe...

Jab bhi ke khoisish faana hone ke,

usne de hai dua jeene ke mujhe...

Ya khuda na pucha na puchunga kabhi,

Ek sawal kyo chod diya adhura mujhe...

Arthi raat dale sannate ke,

uthati hai ab shoolo ke tarah...

ulazhe hue alfaz zehn me,

chubte hai ab khannto ke tarah...

khyaal-e-jannat, dozhad aur zindagi,

mil bayate hai ab yaaro ke tarah...!!! 

Khush

Aye ajnabi kuch to bol...

Aye ajnabi kuch to bol...

Tanha hai saanse, bechain hai ruh...
Kuch idhar bhi kuch udhar bhi...

Khamosh hai Dariya, Viraana hai sahil,
Kuch idhar bhi kuch udhar bhi...

Aye ajnabi kuch to bol...