The first breath i inhale

Wen i was born, 
the first breath i inhale, 
it makes me feel alive, So that i cried...
Doc said i was scared so that i cried...
Stupid doc i was happy to be alive,
wen fragrance of earth touched my heart,
blood become joy and came out of my eyes...
while i m crying heart beats become music and
i m singing I M Alive, i m alive, i m alive...
Thats the last time i felt alive...
Now i m surrounded by dead bodies,
dead words which are dead truth and lies.
dead emotions that doesnt makes me high...
dead feelings that doesnt makes me cry...
Dead buddies , dead music and joy...
i know u were there and always be there
oh my silent breath, i really want to be alive,
to inhale the life that makes me cry...
the first breath i inhale,
it makes me feel alive, So that i cried...

Nothing last forever

U r...Ur nothing to me...U got it...Stop imaging things...She said...
He was patiently listening to her eyes not a single words she is saying...
Her beautiful oceanic eyes any one can be drawn in it...whenever she gets angry or laugh her big brown eyes become so small that they shut the whole world down what remains is only she...Nothing else...

Nothing yups i know...he replied with gentle smile and stopped staring at her brown oceanic eyes...and suddenly with blushing eyes he said u know what "Nothing is the only thing in this world that last forever..."
and he turn around and left that very moment and her with a blissful face...

Her body is possess by somebody else...In her heart lives someone else...she thinks about someone else...U r not in her mind not even near to her soul...how could u love a person like that...???

hmmmm...Perhaps, one didn't want to be loved so much as to be understood... 

#QuestofJoker

A smooth sea never made a skillful sailor...;)

Today i was hit by a solid question...What is a life without suffering...?

Seriously na what is a life without suffering only death didnt have suffering...suffering ends when v dies...But now a days dead people didnt find peace....we living ones bothers dem their also...:P
 

Anyways I think life happens out of suffering...Even when u r born ur mother suffers a lot to bring u...

suffering makes u alive...suffering actually bring u to the consciousness from deep sleep...it brings you to the reality...

It told u that boss what are u doing, u r something else and u r trying to becoming something else...ur true nature resist fake...den it becomes fight and den suffering comes.

But we humans didnt appreciate anything...When we are happy and healthy we fear death the most...Bcaz of that fear we didnt appreciate that life fully...and on the other hand wen we are ill and suffering or going through bad phase we wish for death that time we actually frighten by life...so we didnt appreciate death either...we always run from here to there...

And i didnt get one thing why we always try to become sumthings else...we always want what is not ours...why not we go with what we have...why not we appreciate what we have...why not we appreciate life fully...why not we appreciate suffering...or death... If ur a fake person then why r u trying to become authentic...be truly fake and u becomes authentic...no 1 like urs...if u r a egoist dont try to drop ur ego...u have no identity without it...So appreciate ur true nature...appreciate suffering...appreciate that u r alive...appreciate dat u get the chance to appreciate that beautiful thing called life...:)

Remember that night 
when u were happy for a while...
u smile like a sunshine
darkness faded for a while...
Your chicks are blushing 
even rose gets shy for a while...
Your eyes are sparkling like
stars falling into the room for a while... 
hey do u hear...do u hear that...? 
my heart just skip the beat for a while...
Oh girl when u smile...
whenever u smile...
my heart skip the beat for a while...

Wondering why...???

whenever u say goodbye
i never give u the same reply...
waited for u to come
and say honey its a lie..
how could i leave u my love
i ll stay forever until i die...

But that night when u r about to fly
u barely speak a word not even try
u looked every where apart from my eye
my heart filled with pain and is about to cry
i stood up in anger and said goodbye
U simply nodded ur head in reply...
waited in front of ur house wondering why
couldn't help myself but simply cry...

Since that night months had slip by
U haven't called me even barely reply
i ask u the reason behind ur do by
u said u r busy and want me to comply
Honey is that true or just like ur previous lie
we dont talk much now time simply fly
nights became sleepless wondering why...
i m standing here alone wondering why...
i m standing here alone wondering why...!!!

I wish i knew why she left...what her reasons were...why she changed her mind...
For all those days i have turned it over in my head all the possibilities...yet none of them makes any sense...
And then i think  perhaps it was because she never loved me...but that makes the least sense of all... 

Surreal to be dream...

Kal ke raat kuch ajeeb thi, ajeeb aysi ke ek jaane peehcahne se ajnabi se phir mulaaqaat hui. wo bolta raha ho may sunta raha, or bus yuhi raat kab shubha me tabdeel ho gayi pata he nahi chal. May hamesha ke tarah raat ke khamoshi me sukun ko talaash raha tha. Achanaak ek awaaj saanaate ko cheerate hue mere kareeb aayi.
Bahut Dino se tumhe dekha nahi yaha...suna tha ke kisi ke par nikaal aaye hai bahut dur ke udhaane udha raha ha aajkal wo shaqs. phir ye kya, tum yaha kya kar rahe ho ?
Taaq gaye ho ya phir bore ho gaye ho...Ya ab maza nahi raha udhane me...Baat kya hai...?
Dekh raha hu jishe kis pinjare me rehane ke aadat na thi, jisne bade bade pinjare yuhi chod diye aaj wo shaqs is chote se thang se pinjare me pada hua hai...Kiyo har gaaye itni zaldi...?

Ek he bar me sarre sawal kar logaye kya...Ye sawal hai ya taunt mar rahe ho mujhe...Wase tum batao tum aaj yaha ka rasta kasie bhul gaye...or kya dekhne aaye ho yaha.?
may tho hamesha se yehi tha roj yehi se guzaarta tha. tumhe dekhta tha or chala jata tha. tumhi kahi busy thi. Naye dost jo bana liye thi tumne.
Par dekh raha hu aaj tho yaha koi nazaar nahi aa raha. Tum akale ho, Kaha gaye tumhe saare dost jinke hone se tumhe meri mojuzadgi ka ehsaas nahi hota tha.
koi nahi hai mera. May akela aaya tha, akele he chala jaunga. tumhe kya...?
Ha mujhe kya. Suna tha Rishte wahi hote hai jo tumhare sath khaade ho jab koi dursara na ho, jab tumhe unki sabse zada jarurat ho.. Wase pata nahi tumse kya rishta hai mera, kiyo may tumse baat karta hu. kiyo may tumhare bare me sochta hu.?
Or ye kiyo sochta hu ke tum badaal gaye ho...?

Tumne chand ko dekha, nahi dekha tho dekho abhi, Tumhari Aakhnoo se riste lahu ke ek ek katre ko ushe aapne upper ood liya hai...Maano chand chand nahi ek lahu ka goola ho. tumne Sitaro ko dekha kab se muntazir hai tumhare ek ishare ke liye. Ek kab tum dil se kuch maango or wo ushe pura karne ke liye khud ko faana kar de. Tumne hawa ko suna hai, jo kabhi maad mast naacha karti thi tumhari nazaaro se aaj wo naachna bhul gayi hai.
Nahi dekh raha hai tho dekho, ish tang pinjare se bahar tumhare chahane wale kis tarah haataash hai.
Mehsus karo ke Dil sirf dil nahi jo bus dhaanakhna jaanta hai. Suno wo kya kaha raha hai tumse. Wo bhi tumse yehi bol raha hai ke Wapas aa jao jaha sab tumse pyar karte hai. Jaha Sapaane bhi haqqikat ke tarah lagte hai. Wahi karo jo tum hamesha se karte aaye ho dilo ko jeetna.
Zindagi me aksaar hum rashte bhaatak jaate hai, par bhaatakne par roone se kuch nahi hota, ye jo galaat rashta hai ishe bhi aapni mehek se bar do, ke yaha se guzaare wala har shaqs ke Zubaan par tumhara naam ho or Dil me ye ehsaas ke Jeena ishi ka naam hai.

Phir kya Zindagi bhi lad padegi tumhare liye maut se...Chinne ke le aayigi tumhe wapas aapne pass.

Kiyo mazak kar rahe ho mujhe se. May kuch bhi nahi...May kuch nahi kar shakta. May sirf...

tum sirf Khush ho, Tum Khush the, or khush he rahe wale ho. Chahe kuch bhi ho jaaye, chahe koi bhi aa jaaye tum tum he rahoge.
Tumhari fitraat he kuch aysi hai ke Tum badaal nahi shakte. Tho kiyo lage ho khud ko badaalne me,kiyo lad rahe ho khud se... Arre baqsha do yaar khud ko, kitna hurt karoge khud ko,aare ye befeeqari, besabar paan, deewaanigi Inse lakh chaho par tum peecha nahi chuda shakte. Tho bus phaank failaao or Udho jaao thod do ye pinjara ye bandish Dil ko azaad karo ko sarre bandaana se.

par aysa kaise hoga...?

Kaise hoga yaar ye tho bahut phale ho chuka hai bus ab mehsus karo aakhnee band karo or suno...?

And when i open my eyes sun rays touching my face. I thought it was a dream But it felt like Surreal...and who is that stranger...I know him Raato ka Raja tha wo...U always bring mirror with urself and show that to me...Miss u buddy really...

Haqqikat or sapaane me bus farq hota hai "Hone ka"...Jo hota hai par dekhta nahi wahi haqqikat hai...